If ever....

I spent four hours studying one case. And I've yet to actually brief it or even completely understand the arguments being presented/analyzed. I mean, I get it, but if I was under the gun and the proff. was grilling me.... I'd waffle like a Frenchie at war.

Don't get me wrong, its nice to get down to the nitty gritty of this whole idea of a "legal education" (one which I've come to liken to playing American Gladiators) but it also makes me wonder if I can pull through and finish. Yes, its early, and yes, I've a long way to go. But you have to wonder sometimes....

I find myself missing my son more then I think I can bear. I carry his picture with me and even though it makes me keep my head up and keep one foot in front of the other, it gets me really sad to know he wakes up in the morning and doesn't see me. Perhaps he doesn't even remember me for all intents and purposes.

And again, I wonder if this "legal education" is worth that sacrifice. Because that goes beyond profession or education or dreams and goals... thats my son. My seed. My duty on this earth is to provide for him, not just financially, but spiritually and emotionally. Something I never really got. And here I am, selfish little me, working on promulgating my self interest and making my mark on this world (to state is as naively as possible)

I don't really care about Torts when I think about it like that. Nor property. Or a JD in general. I just miss him. But for now I'll head back to Hammontree v. Jenner and give it another go. I suppose the day I don't miss him as much as I do now will be the day I should really worry.

For the time being, I'm in this for the long haul...

Until Then...