on starting law school, son

i'm settling in for the long haul once again
and that faint and oh so smug feeling that i've
"earned what i've learned"
has dissipated with the churning and turning
of my stomach
when getting broad-sided by that painfully obvious realization
that I ain't learned shit

no, son, your father is a nobody
in a long and illustrious history of nobodys
that we have gussied up by naming
"Mankind"

if you do ever Know something for sure
Know this.

We are nobody one second
and somebody the next
but just as swift as one loses virginity
(and almost as ingloriously i might add)
we die.
some sooner.
some later.
but none ever outrun the calculating scythe of that unknown finale.

so go, son, when its your turn,
and find a meaning
a love
a passion
something, anything
that will give you the reason to continue on your journey towards nothingness
find your God.
find your Self
find a small baby boy of your seed that will let you know that being nobody
is more then ok
as long as your somebody
to someone
for at least some time.